My adult life

Hai my purple bloggie.. Its me.. Im sorry sebab lama tak update apa2.. So actually i already graduated and finish my degree a year ago.. Im not yet to be called successful people.. Still a mess.. Im struggle to find a job with my qualifications.. Struggling with my life.. Hmm i hope the next post gonna be my happy story and i will type it with a big smile.. Not like now😞😞 i dont know with who i can share my sadness.. Im really down rn.. And no one calm me.. Because in their eyes im just fine.. I might be talented in making people believe that im such a happy and lovely girls ever.. But no one know how i feel inside.. Im just terrible person.. I hurt people.. I have my ego.. Im such a bad person.. Nothing last forever including me.. I know nobody would read this confession.. Thata why i spill it here.. All my feeling all my sadness.. I just want someone who always be there for me whenever i have problems.. But everytime its happen  i have to keep it inside me.. Alone and pretend like nothing is wrong with me.. I always feel that i will be a burden to someone.. Thats my bad.. I can be a good listener to others but i can't be a good listener to myself.. All the feelings mix together and it make me anxious.. I don't know how to fix it.. Sometimes i feel i just don't deserve to be love.. Im sorry bloggie i just came to u when im sad.. Im such a useless friends right😩